My dreams

Thats the message leaders,2010 was a year of rebellion and struggles . I thank My Dady Upstairs for being there for me and for HIS guidance and patience . 2010 I lost friends , made new ones reconciled with broken friendships and well found myself a hobby which I like .Lets enter this new year without doubts because there is a lot HE has in store for you and me . Enjoy it .
Love Fafa

Lately I have come to realise that life is like any other game, but the difference is that in our normal games we have time to know when the game is ending . Like for soccer we know that the players have 90 minutes to do their best to score as many goals as possible to beat the opposing team .Life is not like that , the final whistle can blow anytime ...even today or tomorrow .

I remember a few years ago when I went home for a holiday . My niece Mirriam was just 5 years old . One day I was left home with Mimi and my young cousin Andrew who was then 9 years old . While they were busy watching cartoons on T.V , I was also busy playing computer games and listening to music. Later Mimi came to me and said " Fa! I am going to the kitchen to get a spoon and freezer to get some yoghurt , watch Andrew please because he likes messing with the T.V!" I laughed so hard , but Mimi came back and stood next to me and put 1 hand on her hip and said " I mean it Falles! "

"I'll help you get the yoghurt from the deep freezer ok? " I said and I stood up to help her . But to my surprise she firmly said " I will do it myself !" Deep inside I knew she was too short to bend down to reach the deep freezer to get it , but since she insisted I watched her go to the kitchen and got a spoon .She took a stool and moved it closer to the deep freezer and stood on the stool and bent over to get the yoghurt , to my predictions she was too short to reach it . "Fa! Help me get it please !" all that independence Mimi had was gone and she depended on me to get her what she wanted .

I came to realise that as a christian sometimes I act like my niece . Like most of the Christians We sometimes have that spirit of independence in us . we too want to " Do it my self" when it comes to growing in Jesus and Serving HIM . We sometimes think we can do anything without God taking part in our actions , but the fact is that we really do . We plan for the future on what we shall do and how we do it and sometimes we forget to put God first in it . We tend to forget that what God has planned nobody can go against it .We also forget that we were born with distorted thoughts, our thoughts and actions are corrupt .We need Gods Guidance to be with us in everything we do , In our plans and our actions.We need to depend on God in our every action but the question in our minds should be :Can God depend on us ??

Wow,How time flies!It was a time like this last year when I had dreams of having my own website . It was like this time when I had my first post , the Virgins introduction .Thanks to Chiann my dreams became reality , not forgetting Angel for motivating me with her website . I finally had my own site ,My Dreams! A place of my thoughts , imaginations and peace of mind .I am now no longer a stranger at this thing called blogging . Some say my website is a gateway to stalking me but I think other wise, You cant know the 100% me using this because not everything I write is about me. I let people see my life away from home through my words not forgetting the things happening in this world.

TO :Dady upstairs (God)
Thank you for giving me the talent to be able to write something for people to read . For making me discover this and making use of it . I am thankful for all my fans who read this and appreciate my writing.Much thanks for giving me a friend who has always been there for me , in tears and smiles .

To: XiaoChiann
Thanks mostly for being there for me , for being the person that you have always been. For being my comforter in times of my tears , my psychologist when I was about to loose my head , my listener when I wanted to talk , my adviser when I needed advise (though I never listened to all you advise ). I apologise for not listening to you sometimes , for not paying attention to you when you needed it and mostly for hurting you.We've had our time alright , our fights , separations but in time I hope everything will be well again .

To :My fans
2882 hits! wow!
Thanks for following my blog , for reading my stories . For those who give me ideas to improve it thank you .If I ever attacked you in my blog I apologise for it and I will make some changes , that's a promise .I promise to also continue bringing you some new stuff , I know lately I have been lazy and haven't updated it for long but that will change now .God Bless .

Love Fafa .
XOXO

1st of December every year is world AIDS day . The first world AIDS day was commemorated on 1st December 1988 , 22 years on .The slogan for this year is :
“Universal Access and Human Rights”

According to statistics. At the end of 2009, 33.3 million [31.4 million–35.3 million] people were estimated to be living with HIV, up slightly from 32.8 million [30.9 million–34.7 million] in 2008. This is in large part due to more people living longer as access to antiretroviral therapy increases. An estimated 2.6 million [2.3 million–2.8 million] people became newly infected with HIV in 2009, nearly 20% fewer than the 3.1 million [2.9 million–3.4 million] people infected in 1999. .

To some HIV / AIDS is just like a therapy , AIDS IS REAL . Some got infected unknowingly by birth . Its not a virus which infects people by chance because it can be you ... or me . Lets spread the message , avoid stigma and discrimination .Remember ABC ! Abstinence , Being faithful , Condom . Abstinence is the best way to avoid this .GET TESTED AND BE FREE.

Yep , thats it ! The subject which is more interesting in 3rd year . Killing me on a friday or wednesday. Its just a combination of pathology and anatomy, not forgetting freaking Histology which I never really liked in 2nd year . ! You know the best part ?My dean of English Faculty is the teacher so no missing or classes and misbehaving for me ! hehehehe

Guess whats in those jars ? Pickles ??No! Your guess is wrong ! Those are the organs we study . Extracted from the human body after autopsy . * Don't say you heard it from me * .I am not looking forward to is an autopsy ,the thing of opening the human body is giving me chills .Down here you can see a liver , Highly attacked by cancerous cells . Its so sad how people hear about liver or lung cancer yet the ignore the message yet they drink like there is no tomorrow or smoke like a chimney =(

The thing about medicine is that every subject you learn and drop haunts you later in time . I thought Histology was dead and gone for good but now am meeting it again !Damn . "You have forgotten normal histology and anatomy !" That's the sentence I hear every lesson , cant you cut me some slack please ?One thing I liked about histology were the drawing , welcome to secondary kindergarten !

"The Nobel prize goes to Lipitachka ! " said the dean . Nobel Prize ? Me ? I didn't discover any new unknown cells ! I didn't discover a new disease ?! Did I ? " Lipita got this prize for getting not a 1 , 2 , 3 or 4 but for getting a 0 ! " Damn!Better study hard next time , who said in University people don't get 0? hahaha

I feel like I've been on the sea for too long
Waves pulling me back and forth
No direction of my destination
Your smile brings forth navigation
Helping me to find my way home

When I try to talk the only thing you always say is
If it was meant to be then it will be.
So crazy is this thing called love
So lazy is my thought about it destination
Now that I have it how can I give it up?
Now that am down will I get up?

Caught I am in a storm
I cant swim on my own
I see a captain on board
please pull me up with your love
Set your smile as anchor
Be my buoy boy
Reach out for me and take my hand

A few days ago I was talking to this girlfriend of mine . She asked me if I ever have a feeling of unsatisfactory in instances where I really wanted something so bad and then later I realise that its not it . That question struck my mind and got me thinking , it does happen that sometimes what I need and what I want sometimes can be different .

Looking on the factors which can make us feel unsatisfied , I came to conclude that sometimes we think like we are in movies or in a certain fairytale . I dont mean that fairytale worlds are bad because I have my own fairytale world where everything is possible . The best thing is to wake ourselves up from that daydream and face the real world . To open our eyes and then look at the bigger picture and utilise that. Instead of sitting down and saying that " I wish I got something different" you should look at the thing the other way round.

Imaginations can make us create a world which is far from reality and when reality comes to our face and then BANG!!! We become devastated and then regret ever wanting that thing which we have got . Sometimes we forget the difference between what we want and what we need. There are many changes that have taken place in my life but instead of sitting down and asking myself if that is what I really wanted .I see through the thing and then utilise it and become thankful for it because I know am a princess and my King will never give me something which can hurt me .Have you ever considered that ?

Walking through the dream
I see you Defeating my fears and overpowering them
Wandering through my imaginations I see you
Giving me strength and support
Walking in the darkness I see you
Bringing new hope and life

Searching round the place I see you
You fill the empty space in my heart
Rushing through my fantasies I see you
Praying that this moment never ends
Lingering deep in my doubts I see you
If I would wish upon the stars
I would wish to see you pausing the moment we have

Wow , its amazing how time flies ! I sometimes feel like time is like the sand in an hour glass. Things have just changed so fast . Not long ago I was in summer . A season full of life , fresh fruits everywhere . If I were to live last summer , I think I would take my chances .Last summer has been like a lesson for me learn .

Fall is here , everything has changed .From green leaves to yellow leaves . Looks like gold in the ground .Life escaping from the vegetation , which was full of life .The gloomy weather is just making it worse. The gloomier the weather , the gloomier my emotions become .heheheh
Just like green leaves to yellow leaves, so are changes in my life . From 2nd year to 3rd year ,friends to strangers , nightmares to dreams , friends to lovers. Well maybe life is like seasons .New things happen and we have to learn from them like a transitional period we go through .

~Photos taken by : Wong Yih~

See that woman in that photo smilling ? That's my mother , My sweet mother. I cant even explain how I feel about her because It can take time for me to describe her.The most wonderful person in the whole wide world.

Her shouts made me alert , "Falles !" she would shout if I did something out of line . Its weird because now I cant hear her say my name because I am far .

Love so clear , a mother displays. She always said 1 day I will be on my own and have to make tough decisions in life. Oh Mother ! I wish It was that easy .

Did I also say she has been my teacher from secondary school ? I hated that part because If she punished other students they would hate me for that . After class it would be an argument such that my cousin Nyuma and I would scold her for making people she punished end the furry on us! " Thats not my fault , you misbehave I will straighten you !" That's how she defended herself.

When it comes to cooking , mum has her way of punishing us if we dont prepare dinner on time . " So you are here Snoring while my husband is awake and ready to go to work to earn for your stomachs! ahhhhh I know why you are not cooking , Because its not your husband " hahaha that always hurts till now .

When school stresses me , all I do is pick up the phone and call her to get her motivation . Shes my bestfriend, My role model and my number 1 fan . No words can express the Love i have for her . Love you Mum , Youre my hero .I thank God for a woman like you, For moulding me to be the person I am . I will go out of line sometimes but know this : I will one day make you proud . HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

My mom only had one eye, I hated her because I thought that she was an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day in primary school where my mom came to Say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'hahahah, your mom only has one eye!' I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only going to make me a Laughing stock, why don't you just die?' My mom did not respond.... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger. I was obliviously not considering her feelings.

I wanted to be out of that house, and have nothing to do with her. So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Some years passed without me thinking or missing her .I later got married , bought a house of my own and finally had kids of my own.I never told my children about their grandmother because she was not part of my new happy life . I was happy and comfortable .

One day my mother came to visit me.She was a bit older now and paler. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, I was furious and yelled at her for coming over uninvited. 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!' GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!' My mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' She disappeared out of my sight , I was not even filled with guilt .

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbours said that she died. I did not shed a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

'My dearest son.
I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. You see,when you were very little, you got into an accident and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. With all my love to you,
Your mother

An ocean of tears flooded my eyes. I was able to see properly because my mother sacrifised her eye for me .I wish she told me that before my hatred for her grew . I wish I would rewind the sands of time and be kind to her just as she was to me . Oh LORD its too late !

The Joy of learning?Say a word !!Who came up with that crazy phrase ?
Thats how I have been feeling for the past 1 week . I started thinking that I was suffering from depression because of Biochemistry . I just hated the fact that I was studying under pressure. When the final studying day came my head got fed up and said Enough!!!hahahaha
I went there with My God and He helped me conquer . Thank you all for your best wishes because they motivated me . Not forgetting the verses some of you gave me to read when my head was overheating I appreciate it .

Imagine today I have slept for 12 hours after a week of sleeping for 3 hours ..hehehe I am free for now , I mean for Now because the war is still going on .heheheh

One thing I have come realise is that this is a big world , so its easy for a person to get lost in it . It a big world full of different experiences which can swerve you from this side and that side . I am just a big little girl who is wandering about , trying to face to facts of life and some reality .

Sometimes I end up being lonely but the question is do I keep away from people I am close to because I am weak ? Do I end up being depressed because I always have expectations in people ?What am I to do if that friend of mine doesn't act towards my expectations ? Should I keep on fighting ? What about that person who made promises that made me happy and broke them ?
I am just on the verge of finding the unanswered questions which pop in my mind time after time .

Some people say Life is what you make but I think sometimes its not up to us to decide our destiny and our happiness. I feel like Life is like a dancehall and God is the DJ so better dance to the music played then .Someone told me that life is like a journey , you should just walk and not look back because something might be gaining on you , something from your past . Another person didn't agree with that, she told me that to walk in the path of life you need to watch both ways so that you are ready for anything that comes on your way .But my perception is that you should do a little bit of both .

I sometimes do things which I know the devastating results yet I pursue , when the devastation comes I fall like a log cut off from a tree I guess that human . Maybe I do that because this is life and sometimes its better to try other than regret .I am speaking this from experience because of what I did , I never wanted to miss a chance and then regret . We sometimes do the wrong things for the right reasons which other people can not understand.One thing which is left are the memories no one can take away and the feeling left inside not forgetting the consequences you are facing.

Ive met many people in my life and have come to realise that we should never takes people for granted because you might not know the aftermath .Being under some alone self evaluation to know the direction of my life after some mess I have made . I am trying to clean that up although I have realised that life can be like a window pane and the mistakes are the mess . Some mess is just tough to cleanse even after it rains.hahahaha!

Sometimes its hard to answer some questions people ask . Why am I suddenly cold ? Are you serious ? Is that a test of my feelings ? I am way over these mind games .
Its funny how some people can start the damage and then wonder what happened . When I need help from people doesnt label me as a helpless person so that someone can just throw trash in my face.

If I ask for Ideas from you that doesnt mean that I have no single Idea in my head.When I told you something , I didnt require your judgement , or you to show me a cold shoulder .
So I never listen huh ? What was I doing when you were speaking then ?ohhh I remember I over rode your problems with mine . I might not have done many significant things to you life but I know I atleast tried doing a million little things which you can never realise .I wont talk anymore because Silent treatment is the best .

His Promises are like a love letter full of hope
Sipping deep down my veins
Permiating in my thoughts
Bringing Hope to the hopeless

His Promises are as Sure as the sun will rise
As Fresh as the morning dew
They engulf my heart
Releasing my heavy laden

His Promises lift me up
Taking me to a place of Joy
Neutralises my Doubts and fears
Oh my Lord ! You will forever fulfill your promises

Have you ever stood in front of the mirror and wonder who that person looking right at you is . I have !Sometimes I wonder if she is lost and will come back soon . But what if shes doesnt come back ?

My attitude towards my own reflection shows that I am lost in my own world . But what if the she doesn't turn back to be the person who she has always been ? In life a lot of things change . Aha ! Thats the answer . 1 thing I have come to realise is that we grow up and sometimes change from what we used to be . The things we liked 2 years ago can not be the things we like now . The people we were close to can not be as closer to us as they used to be , I guess thats part of growing up .

But what if people attitude towards you have changed ?Does it mean that you have to change because people want you to be what they want you to be ? I think not , change is bound to happen .Its just up to us to ask ourselves , Have I changed for the better or for worse ? Thats what matters .

When it comes to expressing our feelings , few of us are more honest than children . I remember some time back when my mother was struggling to make my niece to obey . When she asked her why she would not do as she was told , my young niece said " Ma , I just dont want to!" That did not stop my mother from producing a rod and spanking her ! hahaha

Many of us as Christians are not that honest . We make excuses for not obeying God's will, when the real reason may be that we just dont want to do it .For example when I first came to Russia , I started reducing the number of times I would read the bible and pray . Later when I started adapting to this place I found an excuse for spending a little time in prayer . I thought that I was busy with the debts which I had to clear .

When I changed to english medium I still did not read the bible and pray regularly or go to church . Now when I sit down and think about this I have come to realise that I did all that not because I was not really familiar with St. Petersburg or the people .My real problem was that I simply did not do it because I was lazy .

1 John 5:3 which states that : This is the love of God , That we keep His commandments. This is where our answer comes from . I now have a family here , which encourages me and always there for me . Thank you All Nations International Christian Center . Thank you Students for Christ (SFC) , for your encouragement .

Yeah that's right ! I am now officially in 3rd year . Summer is over marking the new beginning of my school year . I wasnt looking forward to school but its gotten me falling in love with it .

My classmates are back from the holiday , damn! It was nice seeing you guys again . Guess what ? Nothing has changed between us .Same old desk mate , M & M is just beginning .
Same old class gossips on the round table , the table is not visual .Talking about class affairs and whose is gonna miss class tomorrow . Not forgetting the class debates which spices up break time .Same old guys to make me crazy, Hey papparazi ! arghhhh!!
To: My desk mate
Lets keep rolling and sit together because its M & M baby !The written class letters we write to each other are coming soon .That is if the teacher is making me want to sleep & If I have the latest news class (gossip)! heheheh
To:The round table
Fafa is back and you know how we roll . You know I dont back down when It comes some crazy class arguments . I sometimes know that what I am saying is wrong but you guys know how I back up my point.Fafa is always Fafa!hahaaa
To: 3rd Year
Remember its not 275, 276 or 277 ... Its now 375 , 376,377 . Theres now peace in class but I know soon the wars will start soon .So bring it on !!!

I recently read a story about a man in Michigan who was trying to remove a tree stump from the yard of a friend . An Idea came in his head , he decided to use some dynamite which he had stored away in his house . It did the trick . But guess what happened ? The explosion turned the stump into an airborne missile that travelled for almost 163 feet down range before crashing through the neighbours roof.oops!
The stump opened a 3 foot hole in the roof , split the rafters and pushed through the ceiling of the dining room.oops! again that was alot of damage which the dynamites caused .
Sometimes I see myself in the action of a dynamite just like other people.We have used explosive words ad actions to try solve problems but it makes things worse .I can say I get the action but it just worsen the things sometimes .Instead of fixing or getting what I desire I just leave much damage in my wake .

Wait a minute , just like alot of people am not the first person to let anger make trouble for me especially when someone steps on my toes . It happened to people in the bible too .Moses for instance became furious and extremely frustrated at his followers when they ran out of water in the desert . Instead of speaking to the rock to get water as he was instructed he struck the rock twice.

Anger like dynamite is explosive .Thats why sometimes when you say something provocative and I dont talk back that doesnt mean that I am foolish .I just try to prevent the anger in me from getting unleashed and causing problems .When a persons temper gets the best of him , it reveals the worst of him .

Claudia sat on the window pane , travelling through memory lane . How can this happen?Why me ? why us ?She has known Jimmy for a long time since preparatory class . All the time she knew him she never knew that Jim always loved her but she was too blind to see . All the time Jim visited her on her hospital bed and cooked for her was because he loved her .Now she knew it was too late to get him back , too late to claim what rightfully belonged to her .

Sitting on the window pane and watching passerbys thoughts popped into her head again . Now she was thinking about what happened to her for the past 1 month . She never meant any harm , If she knew she could not have met Jim again . Claudia met Jim again when they were both having a school session break . Maybe it was fate that brought us back together , Maybe it was just a random thing , she thought to herself.

Meeting Jim again rekindled some old flames .She remembered the Big bear hug they shared upon seeing each other , his smile which always made her weak .One thing led to another and then both ended up embracing each other , love was in the air . "what am I doing ? What am I thinking ?" Those were the questions she asked herself when she was in his arms . She did not care that Jim had a girlfriend as long he loved her too . Her life changed with one kiss , every time she was with him she always asked " where were you all this time my love ?"

"Claud , I love you so much , even if we are not going together am not going to stop loving you"Jim assured her when he looked straight into her eyes . She was speechless with no response but just a nod and a kiss.Such a wonderful time they had together , both knowingly that they have partners . But that did not matter to them as long as they were happy and together .The pain that would be felt by their loved ones if they knew what they did was the least of their worries .

Claudia was now locked in a fairytale where she was treated like a queen and felt worth needed ,like a woman again she felt.There was nothing that could stop her from loving him even inspite of his girlfriend Jenny who went to see her parents during the semester break .

Things between Jim and Claudia changed when Jenny came back to school . Jim rarely called or texted her , she started understanding the fact that he did not belong to her . Emptiness vacated her heart , her smiles turned into sorrow."What am I supposed to do ? Should I fight for what is rightfully mine ? Should I give him up?Should I pause my heart and wait for him to come back and move it ? I guess I love the way it hurts" She closed the curtain and sat on the bed side while thoughts marathoned her head .

What if he never comes back ?Does it mean he is the best I have never had ? How she wished she would turn the sands of time so that they should be together again . How she wished he came back at her door knocking and told her he still loves her inspite of his silence which killed her slowly like cancer .How she wished she was in those arms.Now she was back in the real world where Jim was not her King and she was not his queen. "reality sucks ! " She mumbled and closed her eyes .

Did I say that I have fallen in love ?I hope so because its such a wonderful feeling.Lately I have been asking my close and trusted friends how I can go about it .Asimbuyu gave me an article about it from the magazine Awake which was published in 2004 .It helped me because I have found some of the answers I needed so I decided to do the review about the article I read .

Here is the thing , I am in a situation which I bet most girls are into . You know when you like a guy which you maybe met at school , in church or a a social gathering. You know you Like him and you think he likes you too ,maybe you think hes shy or you think he doesnt know you like him .The thing is you want the guy to be more than a friend to you .Most of the times the questions which arise are: Who should be the one to declare that he or she is in love -The boy or the girl ?How can I tell him how I feel about him ?
I have talked to a few guys and asked them how they would feel if a girl told them shes in love with them .Most of them said it is not a big deal if a girl told them she liked them .According to the article , it is ok for a woman to tell a man or show him that she likes him . It gave the biblical example of Ruth the widow and how she she showed that she loved Boaz.Fortunately God blessed her efforts and they were worth it (Ruth 3:1-13) .

Like most African girls I have been raised up to believe that it is a guy who asks a girl out , so its hard for me to do that because that concept is stuck in my head.So it comes to this , family and community is what can influence on whether a girl can tell a guy how she feels about him or not ."Opening up about your feeling to someone who may not feel the same way is delicate ,risky matter "Awake.According to the article the best way to avoid unnecessary embarrassment or emotional devastation if the persons response is negative is to follow the following biblical principles :

1.ACT WITH SHREWDNESS
It is easy for most of us to get caught in day dreams. Some times we even imagine our wedding day or something more . However, while reveries of this sort may be enjoyable, they are illusions. They can produce overwhelming desires that you have no means of satisfying.

Daydreams can also distort your judgment and in the end make you emotional because sometimes they make us think far from reality .Proverbs 14:15 says: “The shrewd one considers his steps.” Being shrewd means having common sense and sound judgment. How can you be shrewd in the realm of romance?
(a)Get to know him because you can not love someone you dont know. Try to ask people about his character and behaviour and not forgetting engaging in simple conversations with him .
(b)Avoid revealing your feeling prematurely because he will be surprised as of why you have spontaneously liked him .

2.THE IMPRESSION YOU MAKE
As they always say first impression matters . Sometimes we act out of line because we think that is what attracted the guy to you . It is proper for you to be yourself in a proper way . sometimes we girls think if we overdress or under dress the guy will like us more , most of the times that is wrong . If a guy did not like in make up what can make him like you in make up ?

The way we speak reveals a great deal .When engaging in a conversation with him never try to make a conversation more interesting by making up some lies . Some girls try to act like the person they like in older for him to be interested but sometimes that doesnt work out because his qualities that youre trying to copy might the qualities he hates in himself.The Bible also encourages young Christians to be “an example ... in speaking.” (1Timothy 4:12)

3.IF THERE IS NO RESPONSE
What, though, if in spite of such modest efforts, no romantic spark is ignited? Perhaps several weeks—or months—have gone by and he still expresses no interest in you. Should you simply brush that off as shyness? I for instance am a person of impatience , sometimes I expect a guy to react soon towards my actions . We sometimes forget that the guy might be observing us before making the next move, therefore impatience is a character a girl needs to prevent.

You may feel that you have seen evidence of romantic interest. You feel that he is simply too slow about expressing it and that he would respond to a little encouragement. Perhaps. But if you decide to take the initiative, you must realize that this is risky. You should give a lot of thought to not only what you will say but also what might be the right time to say it.

You may decide, for example, that to indicate that you welcome his attention would be better than blurting out that you are “in love.” In a relaxed and appropriate setting, you could simply say that you would like to know him better. Don’t worry if your expressions seem a little clumsy.

I am trying to act like a lady but these questions arise;Does he like me too ?What if he says no ?How can i tell him ?Well we shall see how it goes because every experience is a teacher .

When each one of us came into your world
We touched your heart in a special way
Bringing you the Joy of being a father
Your happiness brings Joy to the family

Fighter of our fears
Angel on earth you are
The missing puzzle piece is completed by you
Hero of mine you are
Everything you provide for us is a gift
Relieved we get when you are around
HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO ALL DADS!

With each tear , there is a lesson
It makes you wiser than before
It makes you stronger than you know
With each Smile , There is a lesson
It makes you feel the better side of life
It makes you forget lifes bitterness
With each thought, there is a lesson
It makes you discover more
It takes you to the world of imaginations
With each step , there is a lesson
It takes you to your destination
Achievements are like a destination to be reached
With each Embrace, there is a lesson
It makes you feel loved and protected
It makes you know there are people who care
With each prayer , there is a lesson
It makes you know there is someone who answers
It makes you draw closer to HIM

I cant believe this ! Of all days I oversleep today and miss the most important exams that I have been planning to deal with all this semester?! Peaceful I was and slept like a child with nothing to bother her .
Poor me , I dont even know whether I triggered the alarm clock or the crazy alarm did not ring after all ! Am so furious now but what Can I do ?Jump out of this emo state and be a girl .

Last friday was the last SFC meeting for this academic year . To face the fact I did not attend many SFC meetings because of my schedule , but the few meetings I attended made me feel like home . A place where I would speak and share my testimonies with my friends . Some of you Might wonder what SFC means .It stands for Students For Christ , as long as youre for Christ you are free to join us .

I was late because I wanted to attend Africa Day but ended up getting lost in Nyevsky . Too bad I missed it but some people who attended it enjoyed as you can see the paint on their faces.
At SFC I danced , sang and had lots of fun . The event was well organised and everything went according to the protocol . Eden and Salome were Master and Mistress of ceremony respectively . You guys did a great job , Not forgetting our translator who did a big Job ..Remember never mess with a translator because he can translate the things differently and make you confused . Thanx Richmond !
At first the graduates were called forth to speak to us . I must give a thumbs up to you guys for being there and for your great work .When you are home please do not forget us , always remember us as part of your family (sob sob ) heheh almost shed a tear there .My favourite time was when we were given cards to sign and write a special message to the Shade and Victor .Everyone though deep and expressed their gratitude and love to these guys on the card .I hope everytime you guys read the cards you will always miss us .
What made the event special too was the fact that it was also Yamies birthday . She was all smiles and all that she could say was Thank you , thank you thank you and more thank you .Youre welcome dear & we love you =)


After all this it was time to service our tummies with the yummie delicious food we members prepared . I ate and ate and ate ! It was actually dinner for some of us .
This was followed by photo sessions and goodbyes , fortunately there were not final goodbyes because we shall meet next august for the new SFC session . Thank you guys for everything .Love you

I was happy to be amongst one of the few chosen bridesmaids for Noels marriage to Mellisa in 2007. God had brought this couple together and it was Obvious that they were deeply In love .It was an honour for me to be one of the bridesmaid at such a wedding.
When the wedding day finally arrived , all the preparations were had been made .We looked glamorous and pampered , The flowers were in place . The caterers were already in position to serve the people who were to attend the wedding .

As the Sermon began We walked in first with our partners and took our seats .The flower girl came next dropping petals as she walked in .She was so cute as she dropped the flowers on the floor while approaching the altar .

Finally Mellisa stepped into the church walking hand in hand with Noel. The whole congregation stood up in respect to this new couple.As the reverend started the sermon, Noels focus was on Mellisa .He did not care how the Bridesmaid dressed or how decorated the church was .He was watching for his bride ,and had eyes for her only .

Just as Mellisa was Noels bride so is the Church to Jesus Christ .He loves her with with sacrificial, unending love .He died to redeem her and the day is nearing when Christ will return to earth to take his bride.The joyful marriage supper of the Lamb will follow (Rev 19:7-9)
As part of the church , we are the bride of Christ .He loves us and has eyes for us .Do we have eyes for him?

The first photo is for 50 Cent but who is that dude in the second photo? Its 50 Cent too ! Unbelievable right ? I was shocked too to hear that he has lost 56 pounds (25 kg ) . What a big change indeed !
The rapper did this to star in a movie Things Fall Apart , in which he is going to play a role of a promising football player who gets cancer .Such a sad movie is it =(
To loose all that he starved for 9 weeks and lived on liquid diet , poor 50. I hope he doesnt become manorexic. Most of us are used to seeing the mucho Muscle man but I guess we have to get used to his new look since it for a good cause .My question is ;Will he be perfoming like this ?