My dreams

Claudia sat on the window pane , travelling through memory lane . How can this happen?Why me ? why us ?She has known Jimmy for a long time since preparatory class . All the time she knew him she never knew that Jim always loved her but she was too blind to see . All the time Jim visited her on her hospital bed and cooked for her was because he loved her .Now she knew it was too late to get him back , too late to claim what rightfully belonged to her .

Sitting on the window pane and watching passerbys thoughts popped into her head again . Now she was thinking about what happened to her for the past 1 month . She never meant any harm , If she knew she could not have met Jim again . Claudia met Jim again when they were both having a school session break . Maybe it was fate that brought us back together , Maybe it was just a random thing , she thought to herself.

Meeting Jim again rekindled some old flames .She remembered the Big bear hug they shared upon seeing each other , his smile which always made her weak .One thing led to another and then both ended up embracing each other , love was in the air . "what am I doing ? What am I thinking ?" Those were the questions she asked herself when she was in his arms . She did not care that Jim had a girlfriend as long he loved her too . Her life changed with one kiss , every time she was with him she always asked " where were you all this time my love ?"

"Claud , I love you so much , even if we are not going together am not going to stop loving you"Jim assured her when he looked straight into her eyes . She was speechless with no response but just a nod and a kiss.Such a wonderful time they had together , both knowingly that they have partners . But that did not matter to them as long as they were happy and together .The pain that would be felt by their loved ones if they knew what they did was the least of their worries .

Claudia was now locked in a fairytale where she was treated like a queen and felt worth needed ,like a woman again she felt.There was nothing that could stop her from loving him even inspite of his girlfriend Jenny who went to see her parents during the semester break .

Things between Jim and Claudia changed when Jenny came back to school . Jim rarely called or texted her , she started understanding the fact that he did not belong to her . Emptiness vacated her heart , her smiles turned into sorrow."What am I supposed to do ? Should I fight for what is rightfully mine ? Should I give him up?Should I pause my heart and wait for him to come back and move it ? I guess I love the way it hurts" She closed the curtain and sat on the bed side while thoughts marathoned her head .

What if he never comes back ?Does it mean he is the best I have never had ? How she wished she would turn the sands of time so that they should be together again . How she wished he came back at her door knocking and told her he still loves her inspite of his silence which killed her slowly like cancer .How she wished she was in those arms.Now she was back in the real world where Jim was not her King and she was not his queen. "reality sucks ! " She mumbled and closed her eyes .