Pruning and growing myself

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Sometimes I like to refer myself to a tree, I need sunlight , good soil , fertiliser and some pruning and weeding to grow.In the process of growing I go through a lot of problems , I have weeds that grow around my soil and distort my growth . I encounter parasites that attack me and use me as their host . With my nature some parasites are able to withstand me while others leave and go to other trees because they can do better off without me .

I have a lot of branches that have grown on me , I can say some of them are unproductive and they just end up making me have difficulties in bearing fruits .All I need for me to grow and bear good fruits is a good pruning of some branches. But what about those branches that will always grow back after a stump is left to make me remember ? what about those parasites that do not want to leave mt branches and still want to feed off my immature fruits ?Maybe we really are like trees that need pruning but some branches will steal grow back and remind us that we once had a branch that was cut off .

A reminder

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Dear Lord .
Have I told You how much I love You?Have I shown you how much You mean to me and How much I need You in my life ? Have I thanked You enough for all the Blessings that You have showered me with ?

Lately I have been going through a lot of things , I know all this is for me to grow . But one thing that has helped me through is your word from 1 Thessalonians 5:18 , to give thanks to You in everything . Whether the scenario is good or bad , I have learned to say thank you . Once more Thank you Lord for my experiences and lessons for they have helped me to be shaped into a different person and view things in a different perspective .

Thank You for all my blessings , I don't even know where to start from because they are too many .I have a wonderful and loving family , caring and guiding parents that I am thankful for.My academic success , that part has already been covered by your heavenly grace .I thank You for giving me the Wisdom that I have to be able to go through medical school at a place a thousand kilometers from home. Thank You for the new family that I have here in Russia , they are different but wonderful and caring people who make me happy and lift me up when I am low . I love you Lord .

Lord you are my everything , that why I need You in every aspect of my life . Please Take the leading role while I take the background because I know that if I do things according to my own will I am bound to make mistakes .Help me overcome trials and temptations because I know that without You I am bound to fall off like a log .Lastly , continue guiding me and being on the forefront.

Love Falles

Yawn

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That's the feeling am having right now . I am so relaxed , free and lazy . Time to run around,do my controls and clear my debts is way gone . I am free like a bird !!Now i just need to strap in and study for this coming exam in operative surgery and then back to another semester :)

Mcdreamy

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The air around was cold , the streets were empty like an abandoned town . The only sound she could hear was the sound made by her weary feet.It felt like she was the only person in the universe. Her feet continued moving her weary body to a place where she sat down to boost some energy.' How did I get myself here ?How did it happen ?' Many questions continued to pop up in her head but she could not instantly get the results like Google .

Once upon a life time it all began . Holding on to how it exactly began she started going through memory lane .One glance was all it took for her heart to be overfilled with a feeling before.With that glance everything that she focused on was on standstill .There was something about him that made her feel like being closer to him like a deer thirsting for cold spring water. She remembered how that feeling suddenly evaporated from her heart .The person sitting next to her who she thought was her friend wanted the Mcdreamy that made her feel like a kid ridding on a merry go round .The wind blew and made leaves that fell off from the trees swirl , she then realised that she was back to reality.

Her thoughts took her back in time again , the one who she trusted decieved her . Her friend and partner Jenny was not who she thought she was .All that time she was fed with lies and still believed in someone who she called a friend .Little did she know that Jenny had another motive behind her lies . They both wanted and liked the same person , she just gave way for her friend and walked away . Mcdreamy was gone now , he was with Jenny and there was nothing that she could do at that time .

She met another person who was a rationalisation of Mcdreamy . He was not Mcdreamy , he did not make her have that butterfly effect or that feeling that she felt when she was with Mcdreamy .She felt trapped and tortured , but she still decided to stick around . After some time Jenny told her that Mcdreamy loved her from the first day he saw her . How could she? Why tell her when it was too late ? She was in a dilemma ,royalty took over her mind Mcdreamy wasn't hers anymore.

He was trapped , how could he go to her when she ended up with someone else ? Why was he so cool and thought that he had all the time to convience her that he loves her . He was mistreated and became a slave of love.Day after day he thought about about her , but she was gone . She was in the arms of a man who never treasured her . He was with Jenny who never loved him like she did.She was back to reality, music playing in her ears and the cold wind blowing in her face .'Maybe in another life and a whole new universe he will be mine.He will always be part of my heart' she thought to herself as she pulled herself together and continued to her destination while she tried to figure out her next move .










This new year

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Its a new Year . Its time people say 'I will change this new year ' .People make many resolutions which they do not fulfill as the year comes to an end . As for me , I will still be me , the better me that I am turning myself to be . I will still rejoice and take refuge in the Lord . I will make mistakes and learn from them .I will try to move on with my love life although its not easy and that he left footprints in my heart . I will still smile at things big and small that are around me . I will still be your friend and render my ears and shoulder to you .I will still cherish the family that I have here in Russia .I will try to work hard to complete my exams and go home without debts . I will blog more than I did last year .That is a promise from me , what is in it for you ?