My dreams

Death changes everything , it makes me us reflect on the things which we do in our day to day activities . It  makes us see things which never mattered on a big picture perspective. May its the little things in life that do really matter .Loosing a loved one is very painful and I know most of us have gone through that at some point in life . You know when you hear the news that the person is no more , its like your world is falling apart.You start to ask yourself questions like , did I ever love him enough enough ? Did I spend enough time with him ?

I lost my Grandpa last year , the news of his death shocked me and made me a wreck. I know some of you will say , why? It was just your grandparent not your parent. Well , it hurt a lot because he was a very loving and caring grandpa that God ever gave to me . My mothers Dad , the one my mother  looked up .He was a father and a teacher .The last months of his life were painful because he was sick and as a medical student I knew that his life prognosis was poor .I remember telling my mother that we should expect the worst and she came to terms with it . I was filled with too much sorrow such that I was avoiding him , I couldn't bear look at him sometimes  because the disease really took a toll in his life. The Old strong man I knew was now pale and weak .

When my summer holiday came to an end , I came back to Russia and left him home with my parents .Came mid November his suffering was over , he left us and went to the Lord . That was the darkest moment of my life , especially due to the fact that I was all alone and a million miles away from home . Nothing in my life ever made sense , I never understood why it happened so fast though I thought we still have a little more time with him. Nothing that people said  comforted me , and I could imagine how my mum was back home . God is a true comforter because as time passed I started finding solace in His words , that took time to start making sense to me but it did . It gave me hope of seeing him one day unite and the best thing is , I will not see him suffer.
A year on and it feels like yesterday that  he passed away. I guess things will get better with time

IN LOVING  MEMORY OF THOMAS MOYO , A HUSBAND , FATHER , GRANDFATHER AND GREAT GRANDFATHER  WHO LEFT THIS WORLD ON 13/11/2011