My dreams

As we grow up we tend to  realise that we live on borrowed time . Time is against us , we think there is still time to do something that we were supposed to do long ago . Most of the times we forget that time is on the loop .There people we have hurt who we haven't apologised to.The people we liked that we never thought to show them our feelings . The relatives and friends we took for granted because we were busy with our own affairs to realise that they are drifting away .

I have come to realise that things change abruptly without any warning signs . People who were close to us can leave and then we have no opportunity to show how much cared for them . The people who we had feelings for move on and we have no chance to tell them how we felt  about them .I see so many things change around me , some of the friends that I thought will always be there for me are drifting away . The person who I had   no courage to show  him how I feel is not always going to be around . The people I turned to are not there anymore .

Its not always going to be how I anticipated but now its all becoming vivid to me . Time is against me , the plans that I made for the future keep alterating . But I have realised that its not only the people I care for that are changing , I am changing too . The society and the environment is shaping me to a different person . My faith is helping me change for the better and see things on a different perspective . God gave all of us time on earth , not all of us will live that long to undo the wrongs that we have done . We never know when we shall kick the bucket and say goodbye . What is needed is for you and me to open our eyes and see that things are moving on the fast track. We need to be inline , make every day special for the people around us .

Go left or go right ? Take a turn or go straight ? Fight or give up ? Stay or leave ? To be or not to be ? To win or to loose ?

 Too many things in life that require us to make choices about . We do not always make the right choices , sometimes we  wish that we turned back the hands of time and made a different choice .
Its hard when you are standing on a crossroads to make a decision .

What if I make a mistake ? What if that is not what I want ? what if its the right thing to do ? Won't this choice have a consequence that will leave me wishing that I had made a different choice ? Those are the questions that keep popping in our heads  when we are on the verge of making a decision .

Its the choices that we make that determine who we are , we are the products of our choices . They might be hard to make but we have to make them anyway and live with the result . We have to make mistakes sometimes but that is what will help us  see things on a different perspective . Choices are part of growing up , remember when you were young the choices we used to have were whether we can have ice cream or cookies for dessert ? That is different now , the choices which we make now are those that we shall live with .

We are living in a world that is constantly changing .Change sometimes happens when we least expected . That friend you used to have and trust can now be you enemy . That  lover you used to cherish , can now be that person who you used to know . That parent or sibling that you used to be closed to , can now be someone you rarely  talk to . I guess its all part of growing up .

 I have had changes in my last this past year  and trust me sometimes I wonder why things have taken a different turn  . That friend I used to trust is now someone who I cant even say hello to or look into her eyes .Sad isn't it ? Friendship between girls can be broken due to loss of trust , betrayal , misunderstanding . One of the worst reason that you can loose a friend is when there is a guy involved . You can loose a friend because you think they have something to do with your broken relationship , it happens and things always turn out ugly . Your friend can be put on a tough spot to choose between you and the man shes in love with , tough call huh ?

That roommate that I used  to think that I was going to graduate with is now home . Sometimes life just takes an unexpected turn and things come crashing right in front of you . In my course  we used to be 4 Africans , we used to think that all of us are going to graduate together  but hey  its different . Only 2 survivors in this tough war , that's what change can do .Well I got a new roommate and shes amazing , that's change too !

That sibling that I used to be closed to , is now someone that I rarely talk to . Its a drift and it seems that the gap keeps widening and as far as am concerned  this gap will get wider as time goes . sometimes you just don't know  how things will turn out but all you need to do is try to stand up and fix the situation rather than letting time take its course .

I am in 5th year in medical school , that is change too ! Its just like yesterday that I started medical school here and had no idea how things would be and how far things would go . I am thankful to God because its by His Grace that I am still changing and evolving into someone  different . A lot has changed but there is one thing that hasn't yet changed about me , that prince passion  is not here yet .Well the best to do in all situations is to stand  up and learn how to adapt to that change .