My dreams

Yeah ! That is is me ! I have finally made it through medical school . I must say it has been one long journey  , full of ups and down but God is faithful and I have graduated at last . I am so happy because I finally living my dream . I remember coming to Russia to start my first year of medical school when 1 semester had already passed . Catching up with my classmates was not easy because I had to write all tests that they already wrote and passed . It was really tough since I had to catch up with the work they were doing then and the work that they had already done . I was so overwhelmed such that sometimes I felt like giving up but God gave me strength to keep pushing further . He also blessed me with supportive parents that kept encouraging me to work extra hard even though sometimes I felt like i would never make it . A phone call from them with words of encouragement always motivated me .

I came to a place where I knew no one  but with time I made friends who have been with me till now . I met people from different parts of the world and I tried to live with them  in harmony . It has not always been easy to live with them because we have all been raised in different homes and traditions .I am greatful  for friends like Xiao Chiann , girl I will never forget you . I know that we have never really been best of friends but our friendship was worth . You were one of those few friends that I had before some people came into my life . You might have moved to another city a thousand miles from Peters but I still cherish the moments that we spent together the first 3 years .I am thankful for all the friends that I have had throughout  the 7 years that I have spent so far away from home .  Russia ended up being my second home because of the friends that were with me through good times and tough times . Friendships are forever and no matter how far all of you go , I  will always cherish the moments that we spent together.

Life in Russia has never been easy , from the harsh winters which are not excuses for me to miss classes to harsh people who are still not informed that we are all equal . I  met racists  and  have been called names but in the end I got  used and accepted the fact that other people will always be cold . I have been mugged too and this resulted into me getting a beat up , that was one of the worst things that I  ever experienced  . When I was on the ground and getting that  beat up  I had so many unanswered questions . Was that the end ?Was that the way I was going to die ? What will my parents do? Who can help me? But God is a merciful and I was not killed during all this . My parents thought about my safety and wanted me to go back home but I refused because what will not kill you will make you stronger .

 This journey was an interesting  journey all , from studying cell biology to studying surgery . I have met different teachers , some who just hated their jobs and were very bitter  while others were so kind and taught us many things . I  used to think that when I graduate I would have enough strength to speak my mind to all those mean teachers but right now I so filled with happiness to shout to hurt a fly . The things that I have learned  in medical school have helped me a lot during the time that I have been doing my summer practice at Kamuzu central Hospital  and I will forever use the skills and knowledge that I have acquired from this place.

Graduating is not the end of this all  , its actually the beginning of a new life . A beginning of new experiences because experience is the best teacher . I am a different person because of my life here in Russia , the friends that I made , the people from all different walks that I came across .I will this place , the people that I met ,  the cuisine ,  the environment , the wonderful changes that occur in each season.But  I guess it is time I grow up and go into the real world and save lives as per Geneva declaration . This is just the beginning of a new chapter of my life and I will fly like a cannonball fired from Russia .

 

Your actions make you feel like a hero
My efforts can count to zero
Stabbing painful words that hurt my back
Produced by those sweet lips
Targeted like an arrow towards the bulls eye

Hit me with those backstabbing comments like a pinata
As shame and remorse  ooze out of my belly
Feed on my shame and mistakes
Suck on my pride like a vampire

 Undress me with the "do you know ?' or 'Have you heard '
Your disloyalty pushes me toward the cliff of doubt 
Painfully landing on sharp rocks of rumors
Throw your verbal  dirt on me  but I wont look back
Thorns of lies will shred my feet but I will keep moving
Winds of regret will try to blow me but firm I will stand